I'm going to be honest about the way I feel right now, because I'm freaking out. It's 3:30am here and I can't sleep all of a sudden. I've spent several moments throughout my evening crying. Here are some reasons why.
I've been going through major life changes:
- becoming the bread winner for the family.
- seriously trying to become more balanced and strong.
- trying to make something of my skinny chic blog.
- losing all my weight and maintaining my goal weight.
- making new friends.
- treating my friends with the respect, love and support they deserve.
- being a better mother.
- dealing with unprofessional people that make you want to just toss everything in and just not give a shit anymore.
- Matt Lucas's ex-partner, rest his soul, hung himself and for a full two weeks while starting my new full time job, I was freaked out and really sad for Mr Lucas.
- some other things happened that I can't talk about on my public post, that have changed my life forever.
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Today I lost my job as a Legal Secretary, and the reason was, "you're too nice."
I have a plan for the coming days on how to tackle getting my next job etc. BUT, I'm scared, completely and utterly petrified. I usually have an idea of where my future is headed, but right now, I haven't a clue.
If there really is a God, I beg you please, don't send me anymore challenges right now. I'm not coping. I need time to process...
I had bought a few books from Amazon, but I think it's time to find that copy of, "Don't Let The Bastards Get You Down," by Janet Street-Porter...
Fingers crossed, my Valerian has done it's job and I can get some rest, I'm sick of the tears rolling into my ears while I try to sleep.
ps: I must apologise for not writing comments on everyone's posts lately, I've been extremely busy and really tired. Hope you're all well. I'll keep up with your posts from now on. xx